Deepika, a 33-year old YWD (Young Women Division) from India, has been practicing Nichiren Buddhism for one and a half years. Through her steadfast practice and chanting daimoku – Nam-myoho-renge-kyo – to get rid of her negative relationship karma, not only is she seeing positive results in improving relationship with two of her family members, Deepika has also overcome depression caused by a personal relationship failure. Encouraged by a guidance from President Ikeda, she has set herself a daimoku target to achieve.
I would like to share my experience I had since I began my practice, which have lead to very significant transformation in my life.
My very old and very dear friend introduced me to this wonderful practice. She often talks about Nichiren Buddhism but I just listen to her but never tried.
I was having bad relationship karma and she knew everything about me. But my problem is that I am a very practical girl and does not believe in things just because others are saying it to me.
I believe what I do and I do what I believe. I believe only that you can know things best when you dig deep into it.
Being a responsible girl, I was supposed to handle not only my problems but take care of them as well.
As they are growing older, my parents need extra care. There is a huge age gap of 40 years between my parents and I. As I told you earlier about my bad relationship karma, I am having two male members in my house – my father and brother – one who never drink but never respected the female members in house while the other drinks daily and never thought of respecting female members in house.
My brother stopped talking to me in December 2009 while my father always showed disrespect my mother in front of us.
With these circumstances I was determined to buy a small house for me to invest the money I earn. I joined a new office with good pay hike.
A month later, my boyfriend, who had been talking about marriage since two years, ago left me. This is despite having made marriage agreement with my parents. As a result, this relationship failure caused me to fall into a depression.
I started crying day and night, thinking of my relationship karma. I was not able to concentrate in my office and was not able to control myself at home. My mother, who is very close to me started to worry about me. I was fighting my depression, trying to overcome it.
At that time, I did not realize that I actually have a key to unlock and solve all my problems. This key is Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism.
One day, my dear friend called me and asked about me. I talked to her very normally and let her know about my situation.
However, she could sense that I was not fine as she was able to hear the heavy sound from my heart. I denied that I was having problems and told her to call back in the evening.
Even though my friend was correct, I was thinking not to tell her my depression. But I couldn’t control my tears and was not able to stop myself from crying over the phone.
Then she reminded me about the practice I have joined. But still, I was not convinced to chant for my happiness.
One day, I was in my room thinking about my new house and who could support me in buying it.
The answer was from three sources. The first two were my mother and brother-in-law. However, my father and brother were strongly against this and created many unpleasant scenes at home. My brother began to drink even more than before.
The third but most important source is Gohonzon.
You may wonder how this is the case as I had not been practicing Nichiren Buddhism and was not chanting any daimoku.
What happened was on the day I finished all the necessary administrative formalities for the house, I came across a small piece of folded paper, which was kept in my purse for around a year.
One page contained some selling prices of houses. When I turned over to the other page, I saw a few lines of a Gosho written on it. In fact, this piece of paper was given to me when I attended a discussion meeting for the first time at my friend’s house.
At that moment, I sensed that I am somehow connected with this faith and should dwell deeper into it.
I was one who tends to take a long time to make a decision and usually waiver, just like a pendulum. It took me 10 months to start chanting.
I took up faith in Nichiren Buddhism because of my sister-in-law. She knows about this faith and was ready to start practicing. She would feel better if another member of the family were to join her and so, we joined in April 2009 and became active members in February 2010.
Ikeda sensei said, “Being members of same family implies a deep karmic relationship. It is no doubt because of karmic forces they become my parents and I their child and with regard to marriage it is not a matter of this life alone.”
These lines deeply touch my heart and I have also started chanting for my kosen-rufu partner.
An Ikeda sensei’s guidance said, “Not the strategy. Only daimoku does it. When you are convinced of that this very moment is the opportunity to change your state of life.”
These lines moved me tremendously and I set a goal to complete one million daimoku.
I am happy to announce that, since 15 May 2010, I have completed 460,000 daimoku (as of 24 October 2010).
Chanting daimoku everyday has helped to improve my relationship with my father and brother daily. My father is showing more respect for my mother while my brother has started talking to me since two months ago.
Also, with the financial help from my mother and brother-in-law, I bought the house rent it out. The monthly rentals collected have given me strong financial support. As a matter of fact, my finances are so strong that I am always ready to help those with financial karma.